Writing again

It’s difficult to be authentic on the internet. Every time I sit down to write, I think about the world reading my words. It’s not the strangers I fear or my family and friends, it’s the acquaintances that don’t know my heart. I fear their judgement. In my head, I know if they do judge me then that is their choice and their judgement is really no cost to me. They will judge no matter what I write. I’d rather be judged on my true self than a made up version of me. If I am willing to accept critiques and gentle nudging, then I can slowly grow to be a better person. I want to be a better person. A long time someone close to me told me that I didn’t love myself. It made me very angry and it hit me where it hurt. I don’t know the intentions of this person, but I do know that it is an accusation that would be true for most people.

What would it cost you to be authentic?